tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1788010957215749065.post7329408955978257704..comments2023-05-08T10:05:00.033-04:00Comments on One Day at a Time: My MaskCrystal http://www.blogger.com/profile/04721790696209238907noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1788010957215749065.post-13226611270273280692013-04-29T19:02:12.057-04:002013-04-29T19:02:12.057-04:00I feel the same way. If I don't grieve outloud...I feel the same way. If I don't grieve outloud in some way every single day, I feel like a bad mom. The truth is I am just tired and trying to survive. Thoughts of her are always with me... but I still feel the guilt.allmyprettyoneshttp://allmypretty.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1788010957215749065.post-2148139439789930702013-04-29T15:01:36.043-04:002013-04-29T15:01:36.043-04:00I like what Rebecca said above--We can't do ev...I like what Rebecca said above--We can't do everything all the time and all at once.<br /><br />I also find that giving myself permission to BE happy is the best way I can get through things. That doesn't mean that I don't think about Luke 23456 times a day. I do. He seems to be at the forefront of all my thoughts, even thoughts that have nothing to do with him.<br /><br />Be in the moment. Avery is with you--always. In those moments. So while you might make yourself feel guilty, remember that she would want YOU to be happy. To live a happy life--with or without her.<br /><br />It's all we can do to survive and move forward without our babies. You're doing a fine job ♥ Jenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17635247963030386492noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1788010957215749065.post-9647256495087499752013-04-29T13:56:04.502-04:002013-04-29T13:56:04.502-04:00Sometimes a few days will go by and I will realize...Sometimes a few days will go by and I will realize I have not stopped by Kenley's memorial tree - and I feel so terrible about it. But, we can't do everything all the time and all at once. <br />My happy medium is just giving myself permission to BE happy. It doesn't happen that often right now, but when I do have brief moments of peace or contentment, I try very hard to not let myself feel guilty about it. It doesn't mean I miss or love my baby girl any less. It just means I am slowly healing.<br />However, I do find myself pushing thoughts of Kenley away from my mind because I know they will only make me upset. It's a conscious clamp-down and I do sometimes feel guilty, but I also need to function. We all do. You know you love Avery, and that's all that matters. This road is dark and dangerous - and really wears you out. I'm here for you though, if you ever need me.Rebeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02899434949146448741noreply@blogger.com