Rain, rain go away, it's almost Avery's birthday

Avery's birthday is less than 4 hours away. And to add to the weight of tomorrow it seems as if all of my plans to honor and celebrate my baby girl are going to be ruined. 

We planned to all gather at her playground, Avery's Place in the evening. To allow the children in the family some time to play. We planned to do cupcakes outside at the playground. I planned to do a balloon release as the sun was setting and a floating lantern as the night took over. And it seems as if we will be rained out thanks to an unusually early tropical storm.

And while it may not seem like a big deal, it is tearing me apart. I already don't get to throw the party I want. I already have to celebrate my daughters birth without her. So much about this next week is just so incredibly wrong and now the one thing I was excited for, is ruined. Isn't that just fitting-nothing in life goes as I have planned. 

I'm beside myself. I know I cannot control the weather but I feel like such a disappointment. I don't even know if I'll be able to spend time with her at the cemetery. I know life could be a lot worse, I get that, but I really just wanted tomorrow to be perfect. Please pray for clearing skies so I can try to salvage some of our plans, so that u can feel like I can give my girl some sort of party.