“Darkness is only driven out with light, not more darkness.”-Martin Luther King, Jr.
Finding light after loss is very difficult. For a long time I felt surrounded by nothing but darkness. How could I find light when my daughter, the light of my world, was no longer in my arms? Darkness was a place I hid out in for quite sometime. Anger, bitterness, loneliness surrounded me. I could not find happiness when my heart was missing a huge piece. I could not find light when my world had fallen apart.
I heard over and over that God was with us and as much as I wanted to believe it, I still didn't understand why my life had taken this turn. Darkness was my world. And while I still don't understand why children are taken from their parents, I do know that I have found light and hope through faith. My faith is in God and without my faith and belief in Jesus; I would have no hope in seeing Avery again one day.
Because of God's word, I've begun to see glimpses of light in my still dark world.
John 8:12-“Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, ‘I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.’”
Psalm 119:105-“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
God’s word promises me light even in my darkest times. It also promises me that one day, I will be with my daughter again. Knowing that one day I will wake up and be with my daughter is the greatest hope I can imagine. This world is full of darkness by my light waits for me in Heaven. One day this darkness will be gone forever. Until that day, I will focus on the light I have here, the light of the word of God.
|The verse that has spoken to us the most since losing Avery, |
circled by my Avery bracelet that has the verse on it.