Sunday, March 24, 2013

Illuminate: Week 2-Finding my light

“Darkness is only driven out with light, not more darkness.”-Martin Luther King, Jr.
Finding light after loss is very difficult. For a long time I felt surrounded by nothing but darkness.  How could I find light when my daughter, the light of my world, was no longer in my arms?  Darkness was a place I hid out in for quite sometime.  Anger, bitterness, loneliness surrounded me.  I could not find happiness when my heart was missing a huge piece.  I could not find light when my world had fallen apart.
I heard over and over that God was with us and as much as I wanted to believe it, I still didn't understand why my life had taken this turn. Darkness was my world.  And while I still don't understand why children are taken from their parents, I do know that I have found light and hope through faith.  My faith is in God and without my faith and belief in Jesus; I would have no hope in seeing Avery again one day.
Because of God's word, I've begun to see glimpses of light in my still dark world.
John 8:12-“Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, ‘I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.’”
Psalm 119:105-“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."

God’s word promises me light even in my darkest times.  It also promises me that one day, I will be with my daughter again.  Knowing that one day I will wake up and be with my daughter is the greatest hope I can imagine. This world is full of darkness by my light waits for me in Heaven. One day this darkness will be gone forever. Until that day, I will focus on the light I have here, the light of the word of God.
The verse that has spoken to us the most since losing Avery,
circled by my Avery bracelet that has the verse on it.


  1. Such powerful and inspired photos. I love the bracelet circling the passage. Your words are strongly reflected in your photos.

  2. I love the quote you used this week and that last photo is so creatively done! What did you use to light the passage?

  3. Thank you. I actually used a small flashlight directly overhead.

  4. Thank you for sharing how your faith has grown. This is an area I continue to struggle with after losing my daughter. My faith seems to have lost trust and I hope I can find the comfort you describe again in the future. The last photo is so powerful- both in words and in composition.

  5. I'm looking forward to one day waking up and being with my daughter as well!!! The last photo looks really professional - love the colour tones, they're a bit different.