Day 1: Sunrise

I’ve decided to participate in the event, Capture your Grief, hosted by the wonderful Carly at Carly Marie Project Heal.  The project is intended to help those who are going through the grief of losing a child express themselves through photographs during the month of October.  Until recently, I had no idea that October was Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Month.  I hope this project inspires the creative side in me and allows me to honor my daughter through photography.  A project I can reflect on for many years to come.

Today’s photo was of the sunrise.  I woke up and stepped outside a little disappointed with what I could see from my backyard.  No sun, just a slight glow off in the distance.  Feeling that maybe this wasn’t going to be a project for me, I snapped a few photos and went inside to take a shower and get ready for work.  After showering, I felt the need to go outside again, I wanted to get a picture that I felt more represented Avery and how I was feeling.  So, I headed into my backyard in my robe and was much happier with the photo.  The sun was just peeking through the trees and was shining so bright.  It reminded me of my daughter and the warmth she brought to our lives. She brought life, love and a new future to our family.   Today’s sunrise gave me hope.  Hope that even though today is another day without her, I am still here and she will always be with me in my heart and in my mind.  Every morning, is a new day and a new day for me to remember and honor her.    

Thanks Carly for inspiring me to find beauty in this dark, ugly place.